Know Yourself

I had been a managing family therapist for almost 30 years. I was pretty frustrated because I’d been working with people for so long and couldn’t figure out why some of the things that work for some people didn’t work for others. I really love my clients and wanted to help them. Having them stay challenged for as long as they were - I knew they were stuck. Something had to work.

A very dear friend of mine that I’ve known now for almost 40 years came to me, and Judith said, “I think you should have a Human Design reading. I think you’d really find this fascinating.” I said I would and did. It turns out that I was not happy because I learned I am a Projector with a 2/4 Profile. I was absolutely positive after what I had read that I was probably a Manifesting Generator. I work like crazy all the time; there was no stopping me or slowing me down. I just thought the Human Design specialist was wrong and that can’t be me. That’s not how I’ve lived my whole life.

Projectors couldn’t do what I do in terms of the way that I work, but I’ve always worked for myself. I pace myself. I’ve tried working for other people when I was very young in my 20’s and it just didn’t work. I went back to school, got my degree and started working with clients. I also volunteered at the local hospital with what they called “The Pink Ladies” and gave one thousand hours in one year. I was always moving, always working and I had children. I’m doing all the things that people do when they run a home: grocery shopping, housecleaning, cooking, washing, ironing and all those things along with going to school, working at the clinic and doing volunteer work. So tell me that’s not a Manifesting Generator!

From the time I was born, there was nothing suggesting what might make a difference in my chart because of the way that I was living. Now, mind you, I came from a family where I have three brothers, a mother and a father. Mother was a Generator, Dad was a Manifesting Generator and all my brothers were Generators. When you're in a situation like that, you're just basically conditioned to be that. This is who you are. You do this.  
    
Because mom had to work and so did dad in order for us to manage, I assumed the responsibility of some of the household duties as the oldest child and the only girl. Never did I have any of the fatigue, burn out and all the things that they talk about for Projectors. The women I know who are Projectors just could not function if they had to do that much. Others like me could do just about anything they wanted. I didn't know what the difference was except now I know I was conditioned to believe that is how you live.  
    
In talking with the Human Design specialist, I explained to her that this just didn’t fit, didn’t feel right. Being the very kind and understanding person that she is said, “Well, this is your correct information, that’s right about you and you might want to explore that.” I wasn’t going to have any part of that, so we talked further and I told her that when I was 28 years old I had a near death experience after the birth and death of my third child.  
    
I asked her if it was a possibility that the near-death experience might be the reason things change for me. I gave her the time and the date and the place that that happened and sure enough, it came up as a Manifesting Generator. I don’t even remember the Profile. I felt at peace. I was curious, thinking that perhaps this could help my clients.

I started studying Human Design and the deeper I got into those first classes, the more it became very clear that I was indeed a Projector. In a way, it was a great relief because I have a 2/4 Profile and I have a tendency to be quite a hermit. I used to feel very badly about that because I wasn’t real social. I didn’t like to be out among people. I’m not shy. It’s just that it was uncomfortable for me. Understanding that’s a trait a 2/4 Profile would have, I felt so relieved.

Along with that, my chart is mostly open; I only have three Centers defined: in the head, the Ajna and the Throat (very few channels activated at all). I’m grateful for that because it helped me understand over the years why I was able to tune into my clients so quickly. I could understand even before they did what challenges they were having so that I could direct our conversations in ways that they would get to the problems quicker and be done with counseling.

From the point of the reading, I was able to say to my clients if we can’t resolve the issues that you’re here for within a certain period of time then I’m not the therapist for you. The longest I would stay with a client would be about 18 months. I started doing charts for all my clients and it was amazing how changes happened more quickly. I was able to work with them as their Type and their Profile using their Strategy as opposed to trying to figure those traits out (which would take a while).

It made my work more efficient because if you can look at a person’s chart you know where to start. You don’t have to try and figure that part out. Here’s their Type, here’s their Strategy and their Profile. That's a lot of information right there. They begin to understand how they operate and what their Strategy is because I shared that information with them and it helped them to really get a grip on their life. I think the Strategy is key for everyone, because if you just try it out, you will see changes. They will come back every time and say, “I can’t believe the difference, how much easier things are for me.”
    
I could see the difference, particularly with Projectors with their need to communicate what they're feeling and what they know. If no one has recognized their wisdom or have not asked for what they know, they're not going to be heard. In my particular work, people would always ask me questions and they wanted my opinions. Being invited was natural in what I was doing. Giving information to them was a natural thing to do. It wasn’t me waiting to be invited or asked; they ask me.   
    
Sharing information with them about what they could do to help themselves made a big difference and allowed them to finish their time with me a lot quicker. For people who are the fast movers (like the Manifesting Generators and Generators), basically they take the information and some of them will really grab onto it. Others will just kind of say “uh-huh” and then they’ll come back later with some stories that literally change how they operate completely. Everybody has a story that will help show them that they can change if they just do this.
    
There are others, though, that have Sacral Inner Authority and can’t hear the Sacral energy in their design. Through Human Design I learned how to make a list of questions I can ask them so that they can learn how to hear the response of their Sacral. That was a wonderful lesson because it works. It all works if you just do it.
    
Human Design was basically a gift to me because a couple of years before I discovered it, I had gone a particularly hard time in my life. Human Design gave me a deep understanding of the things that change in your life and that it is not the end. You're just moving forward into the next part of life. And so I approached everything using Human Design — even in my relationship when I started using Human Design, I started paying more attention to me and not what was outside of me. I started paying attention to how I actually felt, the sleep patterns that I had and the way that I would go to sleep at night. I was doing a lot of things that Projectors do just naturally and one of them was the way that I would sleep. If I went to bed exhausted, I wouldn’t sleep, just toss and turn all night. But if I would go to bed before I was exhausted, relax, read, until I felt sleepy then turn the light off, I would go to sleep right away.
    
I also noticed my 2/4 Profile, always having an excuse not to be out there except with my children and when I could do something for someone else. The transition to accepting my projector self wasn't immediate. It was just something that I started watching and let myself be. Before Human Design, I wouldn’t let myself be that person who rested in between events during the day, someone who took the time to just be kind to myself and to look at what I was doing: I was managing. I was managing my life, which is what Projectors do. It was just me looking at the different aspects of my chart that make up my Type and my unique Human Design.
    
Although I worked like a Manifesting Generator my whole life, I knew I was more patient than most Generators or Manifesting Generators, and that’s not typical. I don’t think I’ve ever talked to one of those Types that didn’t’ interrupt me when I was talking and say, “Well, let’s get to the bottom-line here.” I would tell them that the Generator Types aren’t’ known for their patience and that comment usually makes them laugh. So that’s kind of the way it was for me. It wasn’t’ an ‘aha’ moment. It was me looking at me and finally surrendering, then being relieved that I didn’t’ have to be that Type (because a Manifesting Generator is like a whirling dervish).  
    
Once I started Human Design, I studied everything I could find. I bought all the books, read them until the pages are just about worn out. If you don’t understand the concept it isn’t because you're not intelligent. It’s because it has not resonated yet. It has not really moved down into your heart or it has not integrated enough. One day, you wake up in the morning and have a clear understanding. But, sometimes it does not work like that. Sometimes you're in the middle of doing something and you think it’s your big idea when it’s really something your Human Design specialist had explained months’ ago. When you’re actively involved with Human Design for a long time and consider retirement, you think, “How can I stop?” You never know when a person is going to come along and ask you if you really think Human Design will help them; I tell them that it changed my life completely, and I have confidence it will help them to change theirs.
    
I’ve always felt we need more Human Design Specialists. We need more people who will share this because each of us will find who we are designed to be. The beauty of who we really are and I feel like the more of us there are the better for humanity.  
    
I have one particular client, “Joyce.” She called me almost two years ago and her words were, “I’m desperate. I need some help.” I did her chart for her and she came back a week later and saying she needed to know more. I’ve been working with her Human Design now for almost two years and she said that it is the only thing that keeps her going. She has a lot of challenges, such as:

•    She’s an MS patient.
•    She had lost her sight.
•    She had lost her bladder control.
•    She still has difficulty walking; one leg is completely paralyzed.
•    She can’t sit up for any length of time - she has to be flat.
•    She was raised with religious dogma that taught her from the time she was born to turn the other cheek.
    
Because Joyce is a very genuine, loving person, and lived her life to always look out for the other person, be like Christ, and she took it to heart. It was not what’s wrong with them, but always what am I doing wrong to cause that behavior?
    
Human Design changed all that for her. It gave her insight into her husband (whose design is a Manifestor) and why he was not informing her when he did things that might cause her great distress. She learned to look at his chart and really understand that based on how he was raised, his conditioning by his family, the world in general, the way that his chart is configured and him living in his "not-self" that his behavior was not personal as she once believed, “There's something wrong with me that can’t be right.” She thought everything that happened in her life that did not serve her meant there was something wrong with her. Now understanding her design she knows that is not true.
    
Learning about herself, she now knows that she is a 1/3 Profile and is a Projector. She understands that she is an amazing human being with tremendous insights. She has completely healed herself of many things and she’s quite a researcher. Having done so much research, she changed her diet, regained her sight, and regained her bladder control. Human Design also really helped Joyce understand her family — her mother, who completely rejected her for her whole life, and her sister, who isolated herself. Both are no longer with us, but Joyce has calmed her soul. Looking at her Chart, she was able to undo the way she looked at things and has completely let go of religious dogma. Joyce has moved into her true spiritual self and let go of the torture of guilt-producing experience.
     
 In Joyce’s words:
On a bleak November 2013 evening, little did I know that I was a 6/2 Projector who had had a great fall and had not been put back together Again.   

I was 63 and wondered why my life was in such a desolate state when all I had really lived or wanted to do was to make some difference in the World and to truly alleviate some small bit of suffering.   I found a book on Astrology at Amazon but something about it caught my attention it was different “The New Astrology” by Karen Curry.  Thus began and continues to be one of the most Exciting, invigorating and healing journeys of my life.  After reading Karen's book and seeing a HD chart, I was eager to have a Human Design Chart reading, so I googled and Linda’s web site came up, after looking at it and receiving a chart I decided to have her do a reading for me.  Linda patiently, lovingly and wisely guided me along the way and has never given up on me. She deeply loves HD and is a True counselor, one of those rare and special Souls that do their work out of love and really know what they are doing. And, she is the most nonjudgmental person I have ever known.  She helped me to believe and delight in myself again.  Not an easy task.

Linda taught me, with the backup of HD that nothing is personal.  When one realizes that to their core, the knowing is priceless.  What liberation!
 
With these words, I am just skimming the periphery of the gifts of HD. The gifts of Linda are vast also and she has walked with me, week by week every step of the way, through some very difficult times and some joyous ones as well

My Spirit, my identity, my Soul, My self-esteem grow stronger and stronger. With much gratitude and many Blessings,

Thank you, Linda and thank you Human Design.
Joyce S.

I think when you with work with Human Design for a long time, you learn it just goes deeper and deeper and deeper. It’s something that one continues to learn and grow from it is absolutely amazing to me. I know how I felt at when I first started studying I thought “it’s going to take me forever to learn this because it’s so deep.” But I stopped worrying about that and just started doing it. The more you live it the clearer the understanding becomes. Human design to me is the way that I live my life. Something that my closest friends all know about and they all want to know more.

If you would like to know more, I invite you to request your Human Design chart HERE.